Two Lives

I've been digging deep holes in my memory Dragging bodies through the mud of my history I buried faith in the ditch where the maggots feed I tied it's hands when it begged me to set it free I held you so close that the bones in my hands would break And I would lay awake and thank you for the way that they ache When I went digging up holes in my memory I left a couple empty just for you and me I think I used to know the difference from between and before But now I look into the mirror and I don't think that I'm sure I want a place where we can both die Cause I've been gambling with two lives And if the debt I'm owed is taken from me Then I will take a little piece from every person I leave While you were changing colors pushing on the walls and the seams I was asleep and wishing I was anybody but me I dream in velvet and I'm smothered by the form as it bends Saturated in my room now I don't have to pretend I want a place where we can both die Cause I've been gambling with two lives And if the debt I'm owed is taken from me Then I will take a little piece from every person I leave If I Set all my doubt aside Drag it all into The light Am I just scared what I'll find? But I see you My own shade of the blues And I'm more scared to lose What I've found in you I want a place where we can both die Cause I've been gambling with two lives