Master of the Atom

I wrote as fast as I could, almost illegible All interrupted thoughts and vague embellishments I didn't want to show how much I didn't know My nervous hand started sweating through the pages And slid across everything written in lines above And all the words I wrote started running together (And all the ink began bleeding together) Woke in cold sweat, power's out again (And I was scared they'd hear my heart beating then) I can't see past my mirror So, every once in a while, it would happen again There was a lesson we never had learned That it was even more difficult keeping it in I guess we had a habit of forming another extreme Efforts that felt more sensed than seen When you finally saw what it read Despite what I said, it's not how I meant it My car wouldn't start The glass had frozen The past week, every day had been ten below I guess I felt it coming I knew that someday It'd never start again (It would die here) I guess it'd be best if we just found A way to let ourselves disconnect from Everything we've come to depend on (I'm writing you for the last time) Still it was better to be Left a metaphor, a broken analogy Deadline got the best of me Stop. Ceiling shot collecting above Door could not quite shut All I witnessed was The reflection of your hair You were flying out that day Just past first light We didn't know what to say And you were gone An echo hushed beneath Though breaks the dawn The nocturne followed me And my inverted sleep Still lasted for a week Accumulated there Several inches deep Returning from reprieve The place we used to be Anticipating everyone you see Will ask you the same thing Morning came It crested over the skyline (Although we know better, I'll wait at home) The next stop was mine Still I lied (Away, away, I know, I know) The train kept grinding along its flanges Carried us along underground Fewer fewer further down leaving Silent slid the doors sealed again Couldn't stop the morning air entering I know, I will lie on