I'm Still Not Happy

I'm probably never gon' change I tried my best to see it through but I'm scared that when I get older it's not gon' change Don't push me away and wonder why I left I'm not in love with you no more I know I'm just attached Nothing you do surprises me no more I blame yo dad If I was strong enough to leave you'd never see me again I miss the sunsets I'm always gone off pills by then now I think like what if we kept the baby would I be happy with myself I miss how fun you used to be I'm tired of sittin' on the couch My new girl way badder than you but I ain't felt the same since you left Ion wanna ask get off yo phone I feel alone in yo presence See how you act around these n***** my trust bad and I'm jealous Wanna take my heart and keep yours too you been ungrateful and you selfish Aye bae I'm still not happy Ion think I'll ever get it Ion remember what her laugh sounds like All I remember is the way that she cries I sit alone stuck in my thoughts every night I can't forget about the times that felt right Pictures in my head of him holding you tight I bet it feel like love I hope that you right You used to feel like drugs instead I swallow my pride The highs ain't worth the lows and you can see it in my eyes You fake angel you so pretty when you smile Breathtaking body but evil inside Only way that I move on is if I die Other people want that just let me know it's fine My happiness gon' start with myself I just wanna like what I see in the mirror It's probably people happier in hell I just wanna make sure you love me before I do to much Bae I'm still a human with these fans I'm still somebody son Really they the ones make me feel loved talk to em like my friends I just need someone to listen someone who understands I miss the sunsets I'm always gone off pills by then now I think like what if we kept the baby would I be happy with myself I miss how fun you used to be I'm tired of sittin' on the couch My new girl way badder than you but I ain't felt the same since you left Ion wanna ask get off yo phone I feel alone in yo presence See how you act around these n***** my trust bad and I'm jealous Wanna take my heart and keep yours too you been ungrateful and you selfish Aye bae I'm still not happy Ion think I'll ever get it