Only God Knows (feat. Jamie Ray)

I ain't never been a drinker but I am now

It's like too many prayers came with let downs

And I ain't tryna place blame on anything

Still waitin' on a change, but I guess I'm finna wait a while

Where did I go wrong?

Was it the loaded gun that I tucked?

Cause I never could trust anyone

Or was it when I used to run around town

With girls I knocked down

Knowin' damn well they'd never be the one

Baby, only God knows everything I been through

Broke when the rent's due, mental health issues

Baby, only God knows the pain, the struggle, and the weight

From the world that I carry every day

Baby, only God knows that I really try

Even though I break down on the inside

Baby, only God knows (Baby, only God knows)

Baby, only God knows (Baby, only God knows)

Grab that handle, keep 'em comin'

Lord knows I need somethin' strong

Whiskey tipsy, I can't feel it

No one know why I stay gone

Who would I be if I never came up in that broken home?

Prescription pills on my tongue

Make it all feel right when I know it's wrong

Mama sendin' letters from the penitentiary

I was waist deep in these streets, gettin' lazy

They see me smilin', diamonds shinin'

But they don't know, they don't know a thing about me

Slip and fell so many times walkin' down that lonely road

But I got on my feet

So every night I thank God I ain't the man that I used to be

Baby, only God knows everything I been through

Broke when the rent's due, mental health issues

Baby, only God knows the pain, the struggle, and the weight

From the world that I carry every day

Baby, only God knows that I really try

Even though I break down on the inside

Baby, only God knows (Baby, only God knows)

Baby, only God knows (Baby, only God knows)

Only God knows that I been knocked down

I count the times that I was lookin' forward to new beginnings

And had 'em crossed out, lost count

I can't even paint a mental picture of what I see in my future

It's fiction and I been lost now

Oh, it's like I'm locked inside my mind, don't find nowhere to go

I done tried so many times to pick my head up off the floor

I don't wanna die with livin' in my mind

And lettin' go, I just wanna let 'em know

My past don't define the person I am now

I take accountability for all my let downs

And if they wanna drain my name, I swear I'll never do the same

And I'ma let 'em do they thing until I'm in that ground

'Cause baby

Baby, only God knows everything I been through

Broke when the rent's due, mental health issues

Baby, only God knows the pain, the struggle, and the weight

From the world that I carry every day

Baby, only God knows that I really try

Even though I break down on the inside

Baby, only God knows (Baby, only God knows)

Baby, only God knows (Baby, only God knows)