Why Do The Pills Work

I always was a fearful kid

Was always on my mother's hips

She never had to question if I'd leave

Who I am she couldn't fix

'Cause I'm just a different kind of sick

And of all the kids, God gave her me

I'd wake up while they would dream

I'm in cold sweat, but I can't scream

And I can white knuckle all the way through this

I might be broken, but I'll say it's just bruises

I'm in the fire, but I don't gotta burn

'Cause one a day will bring me back to the Earth

I don't need pity for the cards I was dealt

You say it's normal like you think it'll help

And I'm not saying people don't have it worse

But if there's nothing wrong with me, then why do the pills work?

One time I tried to cut it off

Thought if I could last, then I was strong

But I only started panicking again

It wasn't long until I knew

That the diagnosis, it was true

I don't wanna break, so I'm learning how to bend

I am not weak for finding peace

Don't you think I deserve sleep?

And I can white knuckle all the way through this

I might be broken, but I'll say it's just bruises

I'm in the fire, but I don't gotta burn

'Cause one a day will bring me back to the Earth

I don't need pity for the cards I was dealt

You say it's normal like you think it'll help

And I'm not saying people don't have it worse

But if there's nothing wrong with me, then why do the pills work?

Oh, why do the pills work?

Oh, oh

It's clinical and medical

Out of control, and it gets old

And God, I hate it

It's in my mind, it's all the time

It's hard to climb, it's my design

I can't fake it

It's in the air, it's everywhere

And it's not fair and yeah, I'm scared

But I'm not breaking

I'm strong enough to open up

I don't need love, what's done is done

And I can't take it

And I can white knuckle all the way through this

It's not a life that somebody just chooses

I'm in the fire but I don't gotta burn

'Cause one a day will bring me back to the Earth

I don't need pity for the cards I was dealt

You say it's normal like you think it'll help

And I'm not saying people don't have it worse

But if there's nothing wrong with me, then why do the pills work?