Too Tough Too Long

I wake up with a war in my chest

Another day, another battle, no rest

Smilin' in the mirror like I'm not a mess

But I'm dyin' inside with this weight on my neck

People say, "Stay strong," but fuck that line

I've been strong for years, barely alive

They don't see the nights I scream in silence

Or the way my mind turns peace to violence

Tired of fakin' it, tired of the fight

Every damn day feels like a war, just to survive

It's not that I'm weak, it's I'm worn the fuck out

And nobody hears when I'm cryin' out loud

I ain't givin' up, 'cause I'm fragile or soft

I've been too fuckin' tough, now I'm feelin' lost

This ain't weakness, it's a scream from the soul

I'm breakin' down after carryin' the load

So don't you dare say it's all in my head

When I'm fightin' like hell just to stay out of bed

This pain is real, this life is rough

And I'm tired as fuck from bein' too tough

It's hard to breathe when the dark never lifts

Fake smiles, fake laughs, just counterfeit, shit

I wear my trauma like a second skin

While they tell me to pray or just think positive

But you can't fix a brain that's waged a war

Or silence demons with a goddamn chore

I'm still here, but I don't know why

Some nights, I just wanna say goodbye

Not lookin' for pity, just need you to see

This monster inside has been fuckin' with me

Don't judge my scars, don't downplay my cries

'Cause I've walked through hell, just to stay alive

I ain't givin' up, 'cause I'm fragile or soft

I've been too fuckin' tough, now I'm feelin' lost (feelin' lost)

This ain't weakness, it's a scream from the soul

I'm breakin' down after carryin' the load

So don't you dare say it's all in my head

When I'm fightin' like hell just to stay out of bed

This pain is real, this life is rough

And I'm tired as fuck from bein' too tough

So if you feel me, if you're hangin' by a thread

Know you're not alone in this fucked-up head

We ain't broken, just bruised from the fight

Still breathin', still bleedin', still holdin' on tight

I ain't givin' up, 'cause I'm fragile or soft

I've been too fuckin' tough, now I'm feelin' lost

This ain't weakness, it's a scream from the soul

I'm breakin' down after carryin' the load

But I'll rise again, no matter how rough

'Cause even the tired can still be tough