My Own Delusions

Condemned

Lord judgement please forgive me

It is leaving my body

I cannot Control myself

Vision is low resolution

My mind has a growing contusion

Days have gone by

nocturnal haven has cast me aside

Seconds have turned into decades

the shadows allow me inside (they allow me inside)

Suffocate

Push me down under

Grabbing my throat in place of another

Waking I cannot remember

That I lived here Mirrors and mazes so clear to me now

Yet god is a mystery

Why do I fall

Clouded by fear

If I awake will I die can I stay here

Blinded again

Sinking within

Graves and the Churches will bury me

I'm face to face with everything

I can't erase I cannot forgive

Out of all the times I left behind

Remembering I cannot forget

All the nights I've laid here

The walls conspiring

to bury what is left of me inside

my eyes beyond what worms cannot rebuild

Awake in fear

Unconscious terrors sell me out

My mind is gone

My body my blood

My body a shadow

my conscious will sell me out

My blood my body my blood a shadow condemned

Die

God willing