Absence of Mind

I stood in the doorway and looked out at the light I wished for freedom in the dark of night The other side of me causes so much pain To cleanse my soul I walked out into the air I ran my hands across my face and through my hair Trying to wash away the bad memories with the rain The good times turn bad, I must endure To all those around, for them I ensure Your visit shall be quiet and brief As the mist hits the ground I see fits of rage The padding on the walls turns another page And the pen adds another incident to the scroll Each time the blank is just a little bit longer As I grow weaker you grow that much stronger And on my length of stay takes it's toll The good times are good, for long I am sure The air that surrounds me, is no longer pure The light is growing dimmer by the day The ties that bind me, the locks that hold me in The score in your favor, I have no chance to win This fall from grace such a price to pay As I look out the window from above I can see now what I have become Weary and broken a solitary man Only a shell of the man that I once was No way to rise above Without my legs I can make no stand The absence of mind, causes such pain They alter reports, they label me insane The book is closed I must give in The ties that bind me, the locks that hold me in The score in your favor, I have no chance to win This fall from grace such a price to pay