Not Enough

I have chased this flame

And been burned a thousand times

(Left with smoke in my lungs)

And I can't change my ways

No matter how I try

I'm not enough

Between my heart and my head

There lies a great divide

In which my future's dead

But now my past won't die

My higher power said, love is where you left it

Back in the home, where I should have left my wrists slit

I'm always left behind, bipolar state of mind

I bloom into the high, till all these memories collide

Dead to rights, I've got the ache in spades

I showed you all of my colors

In every single fucking shade, yeah

And I have chased this flame

And been burned a thousand times

(Left with smoke in my lungs)

And I can't change my ways

No matter how I try

No, I'm not enough

I was a sensational fiend

Living a breakable dream

I was talking to God

And testing my faith

I stoke the flame

To try and find some grace

My higher power said, love is where you left it

Back in the home, where I should have left my wrists slit

I'm always left behind, bipolar state of mind

I bloom into the high, till all these memories collide

And I have chased this flame

And been burned a thousand times

(Left with smoke in my lungs)

And I can't change my ways

No matter how I try

No, I'm not enough

So forget me when I'm gone

'Cause all that ever mattered

Were these fucking songs

I dance the thin line

Between chaos and kindness

What scum I was

Hateful and mindless

I have chased this flame

And been burned a thousand times

(Left with smoke in my lungs)

And I can't change my ways

No matter how I try

(No matter how I try)

And if there's anything that I have learned

(I'm not enough)

I am the one who loves to be burned

(I'm not enough)

I fetishize, self sabotage

(Not enough)

Shut your eyes, wait for applause

And I have chased this flame

And been burned a thousand times

(Left with smoke in my lungs)

And I can't change my ways

No matter how I try

No, I'm not enough