Joyless

Please don't leave my room again You're the only thing that made me feel like this year Is still worth living I wish I didn't have to write a song About how everyone here hates me So I'll drown in my mistakes that I can't fix So I lay in the bottom of life Everything that you said so in trust Will never mean a thing To anyone but me And I spent this year just trying to graduate But everything just won't help me concentrate On all of my lies They happen all the time I can't leave this place forever I'm a god damn mess, but I swear I'll get better in time In your eyes, I'm still doing just fine And I can't try to get past this bad weather All the thoughts in my head just seem to cloud over in time In your eyes, I'm still doing just fine So if I stay, I'll keep out of your way 'Cause everything you said to me Was written with complacency And the places that you wanted me Was something that I couldn't see I cannot relate Feeling weaker every day I can't leave this place forever I'm a god damn mess, but I swear I'll get better in time In your eyes, I'm still doing just fine And I can't try to get past this bad weather All the thoughts in my head just seem to cloud over in time In your eyes, I'm still doing just fine So I spent all my money Going from guitar lessons to therapy sessions But I still feel pretty weak And that's the way you abuse me And that's the way you destroy me And that's the way that you hate me Every fucking day I'm so sick of getting stoned in the shower My lungs collapse and I lay there for hours 'Cause I don't want to waste a breath on anything The places I fly with these broken wings And it's true, that I need you This life's not fucking fixed and I need a redo I'm just a waste of breath, I need something new Something out there to help me through I can't leave this place forever I'm a god damn mess but I swear I'll get better in time In your eyes, I'm still doing just fine And I can't try to get past this bad weather All the thoughts in my head just seem to cloud over in time So I spent all my money Going from guitar lessons to therapy sessions But I still feel pretty weak