I Am Not Warm

I am not warm

I am not cheek to cheek

I am not the person you want me to be

I was thinking about that this morning

While I watched you sleep

While I rubbed your back

And reminded you to breathe

I’m sorry I’m prone to recoil

A kiss on my neck feels like a spider’s web

I need to be alone

But I always return

After I breath and lay my head

And rest my eyes