A Gift A Curse

What I've done, what I've seen The lives I've touched, what does it mean? Losing track of everything I gave it all, but what did I gain? And I don't care what waits for me on the other side of life's release 'Cause when I close my eyes your face is all I see So even if I die I'll never rest in peace I was desperate just to shine Now I struggle constantly to survive I... I have nothing to prove to you What I've done, what I've seen The lives I've touched, what does it mean? Losing track of everything I gave it all, but what did I gain? And I don't care what waits for me on the other side of life's release 'Cause when I close my eyes your face is all I see So even if I die I'll never rest in peace And I've tried so many times to show that what I feel is real No, this is not a joke But you keep pushing me Yeah, you keep pushing me And now you've gone too far And there's no turning back And now I hope you choke and fucking burn in hell Burn Nothing changes All I know is that I'm alone in this Silently I wait hoping you'd come back for me All I know is that I'm alone in this Silently I wait hoping you'd come back for me Seems like I'll be waiting 'till the end Knowing that I can't speak to you again Truth is you were never there I don't need your empty words or bullshit sympathy So here's a gift for all those years of mocking me Now I wish all this evil upon you You deserve to feel what I'm going through Now I wish this evil upon you You deserve to feel what I'm going through