Mother Tongue

Where am I from if I'm not from here Years of debris make it all unclear Maybe there's no use fighting it But I've called it home since '96 So am I stuck living on frontiers I flipped through the photos When time moved in slow-mo But I don't see nothing Reliving the moments Distorted by motion But I don't see nothing I know I was born my mother's son So why did I reject my mother tongue I wish I could retrace the steps I'd run To be closer to you mama Closer to you ma You say you love me, but I've gone deaf It's something to say when there's nothing left When all of the weight falls into my hands I'll drown in the ocean, between two lands I'd say goodbye but I'm out of breath I flipped through the photos When time moved in slow-mo But I don't see nothing Reliving the moments Distorted by motion But I don't see nothing I know I was born my mother's son So why did I reject my mother tongue I wish I could retrace the steps I'd run To be closer to you mama Closer to you ma Was I ashamed of my bloodline When the words escaped my mind Well now it hurts to be tongue-tied I was too young to listen Then I built all this distance But I still bleed gold and crimson Got no angel left on my shoulder To tell me to keep pushing the boulder Pushing 'til it rolls me over And now I'm looking in from the outside Trying to pass the blame but it's all mine Burning like a leaf in a wildfire