Punishing Myself Before God Does

Redemption is not just about survival It is one lost soul's revival Would you call my name Or cast me to the flame? Redemption is not just about survival It is one lost soul's revival Would you call my name Or cast me to the flame? It's like a story that plays in the back of my head Nowhere to hide, so face it instead A voice screaming louder when you push it aside Nowhere to run so look inside God may forgive me, but I won't Forced to face my fears again God may forgive me, but I won't I refuse to play pretend It's white noise in a dark room Clawing out from your skin Echoes tower over me Echoes tower over me God may forgive me, but I won't Forced to face my fears again God may forgive me, but I won't This suffering will end Now I can't see my own face It's blinded by the shame Would you call my name? Now you tell me everything is going to be okay Would you call my name? Would you call my name Or cast me to the flame? Fear is the tax that conscience pays to guilt Please, have mercy on my soul Is the guilt that I've got, the good I didn't do? I'll punish myself before God does I'll punish myself before God does Now I can't see my own face It's blinded by the shame Would you call my name? Now you tell me everything is going to be okay Would you call my name? Would you call my name Or cast me to the flame? God may forgive me, but I won't Turn to face my fears this time God may forgive me, but I won't This suffering will end