Big Girl Now

I used to look at the world Like it was in my hands Like I could do anything But now I know I can't I used to love to draw I used to love to play But now if someone knew my fantasies I'd feel ashamed The magic didn't even wave goodbye as it left And now I feel the weight of everything in my chest And I don't remember the last time I danced alone Didn't compare my body To all the girls in my phone Woke up carefree, wasn't stressed Didn't feel like a goddamn mess But I guess I'll survive somehow Cause I'm a big girl now I'm a big girl now I'd run around my street with all my friends But now it feels like they all live on different continents And I wore anything I wanted Said what's on my mind Now everything I say I replay the whole damn night And I don't remember the last time I danced alone Didn't compare my body To all the girls in my phone Woke up carefree, wasn't stressed Didn't feel like a goddamn mess But I guess I'll survive somehow Cause I'm a big girl now I'm a big girl now It went from crayons and play dates and glitter To slowly becoming a quitter From ice cream and dress up and birthdays To feeling so fuckin' lost most days I don't remember the last time I felt that good If my fairy godmother Said I could go back I would Wake up carefree, wouldn't be stressed Wouldn't feel like a goddamn mess But I guess I'll survive somehow Cause I'm a big girl now (Is somethin' wrong with me? Is this how it's suppose to be?) I'm a big girl now (Wish I could go to sleep, and not be 23) (JKust unlearn it all)