Can't Trust Myself

Get a good thing, bet I'll fuck it up

I'm lying in my bed

Itching from tears I shed

I'm sick of this, I'm fed up

I check in, who checks up

On me

I do not know me

At first I thought I did

But all firsts end up dead

Now I see

The truth about me

I don't trust word I say

Don't even trust a single thought I think

I'm full of false notions and premonitions

That I do good through my ambitions

Turns out I'm as selfish as they come

Thought I was sweet, but I'm just a red plum

Get a good thing, bet I'll fuck it up

I'm tired of blaming bad luck

I was born a dreamer, dreaming

Of a life that's filled with meaning

Manipulation, deceiving

All to find a means to an end

Don't know if I even have friends

I don't up open up my lose ends

If I shut them out, can't listen

Sorry I shut you out

I'm kind because the world wasn't kind to me

Born with restraints, I've got to break free

You're not good if you're anything like me

Finding success by bending reality

You'll see

I'll tell the truth about me

I don't trust word I say

Don't even trust a single thought I think

I'm full of false notions and premonitions

That I do good through my ambitions

Turns out I'm as selfish as they come

Thought I was sweet but I'm just a red plum

Get a good thing, bet I'll fuck it up

I'm tired of blaming bad luck