Deceptions of the Heart

I'm broke down, corrupted Stalled and let down, interrupted All the evidence to corroborate The fire that burned away All my motivation, my friends away Shut the world outside and isolate, I gotta medicate Tear my love away, rip and shove away Bring the cavalcade, should I die today? What's so wrong with feeling wrong I find my calm in little sins and Songs that come from feeling numb I'm undone, I'm undone And I'm dumb, and I'm done Done with being happy it's no good I'd rather be in my misery And love could never soothe me Like the guilt of merriment in my prurience So irreverent, too elegant Deceptions of the heart They say I am missing out on what it's all about Doubt and shout it out, I'll never come around Some are made to feel as if there's nothing real So the main appeal lies in the drug you deal Self-prescribe and try to keep yourself alive Only just a rite to help me sleep at night Find a new disease, a couple enemies Down upon my knees, it's all so clear to me What's so wrong with feeling wrong I find my calm in little sins and Songs that come from feeling numb I'm undone, I'm undone And I'm dumb, and I'm done Done with being happy it's no good I'd rather be in my misery And love could never soothe me Like the guilt of merriment in my prurience So irreverent, too elegant Deceptions of the heart