proud

I think there's pieces of heaven in blue eyes I'm scared I'm not far enough at 25 I don't believe in a lot, but I feel like I believe in enough I think that sad songs are better in the car And that it's more fun to kiss in shitty bars I don't cross streets for the love that fell apart 'Cause it was good once, mmm I'm into over-analyzing things and I romanticize the way That my apartment looks when it's messy I got a habit of taping daisies over baggage Hoping that maybe it might make it look a little less heavy I've been a kid who couldn't wait to get older I've been somebody that somebody got over I've been a handful for my mother, and I idolize my brother Still tryin' to figure it out I think not dancing in parties is a sin And I've made a lot of good family out of friends I'm confident but I care what other people think more than I'd admit Wish I did less I'm into over-analyzing things, and I romanticize the way That windows look lit up in the city I've got a habit of taping daisies over baggage Hoping that maybe one day someone might wanna carry it with me I've been a kid who couldn't wait to get older I've been somebody that somebody got over I've been a handful for my mother, and I idolize my brother I'm still tryin' to figure it out I've been a stranger on a train in October I've been the heart sewn onto somebody's shoulder I've been in love and then I lost it, had the ball and then I dropped it Yeah, my faults and my fears can get loud But when I look in the mirror, I'm proud Of the pieces of myself that I get from my dad Of the lessons that I've learned, even if they had to hurt Of the people who I have to hold me up when life gets hard to live And all the ones I miss I've been a stranger on a train in October I've been the heart sewn onto somebody's shoulder I've been in love and then I lost it Had the ball and then I dropped it Yeah, my faults and my fears can get loud But when I look in the mirror, I'm proud Don't always know who I am right now But I know that she makes me proud Hmm-mmm Hmm-mmm