Exploding

I am wild, I am open Rode a wide-awake one-eighty by the ocean I was fuming by the exit Now I got all this space so I can finally digest it And yes, you were a friend to me But only 'til I let you see I couldn't breathe and you disagreed I hope I am always exploding I hope I am always exploding I see the stars, they're supernoving I hope that I'm always exploding Got a hard light on pretending When I hurt somebody just by holding my breath in Thank God I erupted Instructions on people pleasing Rained down like a bar fight on the ceiling And yes, I did my best to hide that scary, silly mess 'Til I could barely find my silhouette I hope I am always exploding I hope I am always exploding I see the stars, they're supernoving I hope that I'm always exploding I hope that I'm always exploding I hope that I'm always exploding If the alternative is heavy holding I hope that I'm always exploding I hope that I'm always exploding I hope that I'm always exploding If the alternative is heavy holding I hope that I'm always exploding I am wild, I am hoping I am wide awake Now, I've been shaken open