Parking Lot

In a parking lot outside the liquor store

Only waiting for 5 minutes but felt like a million more

Waiting for you to drive up in that silver car we took across the country

Back then when it was just you and me

My heart's beating faster inside of my chest

I need a minute so that I can catch my breath

I'm still a wreck when I'm around you

Wish I didn't have to be

I tried to hold it together but this is killing me

If I'm being honest

I'm still getting through this

If I'm being honest

I'm still getting through this

I saw your license plate snap into focus in

In my rearview mirror

My cold hands are trembling

Who knew from the start that this year would tear us apart?

I put my hand on the door and start to shake

My heart's beating faster inside of my chest

I need a minute so that I can catch my breath

I'm still a wreck when I'm around you

Wish I didn't have to be

I tried to hold it together but this is killing me

If I'm being honest

I'm still getting through this

If I'm being honest

I'm still getting through this

And I handed you the papers that were addressed to you

I said I'd get the bills sorted months ago

We stood eyes down on the concrete 3 feet apart

I was too scared to say what's on my heart

But I wanted to ask how your life had been

Are you happier now?

Are you better with him?

How's your Aunt and Uncle doing?

Are they still in that house?

Have you planted the garden we talked about?

How are the cats, is Toast doing well?

Is Louis still afraid and does Peeve still yell

at 4 in the morning when he wanted to play?

I remember it all like it was yesterday

I'm still a wreck when I'm around you

Wish I didn't have to be

I tried to hold it together but this is killing me

If I'm being honest

I'm still getting through this

If I'm being honest

I'm still getting through this

If I'm being honest

I'm still getting through this

If I'm being honest

I'm still getting through this

If I'm being honest

One day I'll get through this