Hit It Again

It's been a while since I last checked my bank Reckless overspending feels better now I've drank A childhood spent living in locked bathrooms Mornings never mornings, always mid afternoons I know I'm gonna cry when I make it home 'Cause drugs aren't fun when now I do them alone It's fine I know it's fine I'm safe, the buzz keeps me alive It's fine I'll count to ten, and once it's over, we'll go again To you, you, I wanna pretend I only feel alive when I'm not in my head Can you wait, wait? I'm over the edge Can you turn the lights off so we can hit it again, again? Hit it again, again Hit it again, again Hit it again, again Hit it again I only used to smoke when I got too drunk I say I'm not addicted, but I still ask for one Sell my last serotonin for one good night Didn't think I'd live this long, didn't think I had the fight Becoming scared of sleep and I'll blame my dreams 'Cause I don't wanna wake up and feel the same thing Renting my life because I'm too scared to own And drugs aren't fun when you do them alone It's fine I know it's fine I'm safe, the buzz keeps me alive It's fine I'll count to ten, and once it's over, we'll go again To you, you, I wanna pretend I only feel alive when I'm not in my head Can you wait, wait? I'm over the edge Can you turn the lights off so we can hit it again, again? Hit it again, again Hit it again, again Hit it again, again Hit it again I'm so glad that I live out my head now That I get out of bed now, send love to my friends now Was scared of medication, but I'm glad that I'm on it now Glad that I'm off it now, that I don't get on it now But I miss the noise, 'cause it's quiet now I'm off it now I'm tired that I'm off it now, I'm praying just to hear a sound It's fine, amen Can we hit it again? Hit it again? Hit it! It's you, you, I wanna pretend I only feel alive when I'm not in my head Can you wait, wait? I'm over the edge Can you turn the lights off so we can hit it again, again? Hit it again, again Hit it again, again Hit it again, and again Hit it again, and again I know I'm gonna cry when I make it home I know I'm gonna cry when I make it home 'Cause drugs aren't fun, now I do them alone 'Cause drugs aren't fun, now I do them alone Hit it again, and again