To Begin

Open container on the train at twelve

With a paper bag

Arizona disguise

Greyhound buses and ID checks

Shared beds across state lines

No juliet law in sight

And it’s all normal until it’s not

And of course I thought that the world was on fire

Burning houses are all i’ve ever known

And the warmth can start to feel like home

After a season

Or a couple

Or a decade or two

Hurt myself and call it independence

I’ll tell you the truth

As long as you don’t call my parents

We pinky promise

I say that it’s for the better

It all works perfect until you get caught

And of course I thought that the world was on fire

Burning houses are all i’ve ever known

And the warmth can start to feel like home

After a season

Or a couple

Or a decade or two

And I wonder when i’ll start sleeping through the whole night

Thought I would’ve aged into that by now

And if asking to belong is too much,

Can I at least least ask to begin?

Ask to begin

Can’t blame the you that didn’t know better

Thought I would have believed that by now

And if I grow old and still can’t sleep through the night

At least i can say I tried

It’s not your fault

No one taught you to survive