When I Was Alive

I spent the day reading news in my car

Articles on the end of the world

I want you to know

I rinsed out my tins, bought shampoo in a block

Read symbols in the parking lot

I'll never know what that means

If it changes the air you breathe

People only want the best

I want you to remember this

Lying in your trailer bed, watching the orange sky

That was blue when I was alive

I could say that I did my best

But, in truth, none of us really did

I drove my car

And took a plane across America

Then home, then back and over and over again

And how could I kill that dream of a

Six-foot hot tub in PVC?

People only want the best

I want you to remember this

Taking your turn with the snorkel to go outside

At the time, I thought I was trying

At the time, I think I thought we were trying