I Hate That I Loved You

A subtle reminder why I cannot trust

That subtle reminder why I cannot love

Every part of me doesn't want you anymore

Foolish and naive, yeah I was 18

Thinking it would last like a teenage dream

So we talk it out and there’s nowhere left to fall

Used to hold myself back so we could move forward

Putting you first, when I know I shouldn't

Excuses I made for you

The hell you put me through

I hate that I loved you

And I let myself go

I hate that I need you

When you’re all I’ve ever known

I fell for the roses, ignored the thorns

And I’ve been a fool for the things you want

I hate that I loved you

But I’m letting you go

A painful reminder that loves not a game

But I’m realising that change is okay

Every part of me says I'm better off alone

Used to hold myself back so we could move forward

Putting you first, when I know I shouldn't

Excuses I made for you

The hell you put me through

I hate that I loved you

And I let myself go

I hate that I need you

When you’re all I’ve ever known

I fell for the roses, ignored the thorns

And I’ve been a fool for the things you want

I hate that I loved you

But I’m letting you go

No matter how many times you hold me

No matter how many tears would fall

I don't regret all the years you've known me

But I'm better off alone

I hate that I loved you

And I let myself go

I hate that I need you

when you’re all I’ve ever known

I fell for the roses, ignored the thorns

And I’ve been a fool for the things you want

I hate that I loved you

But I’m letting you go