Dissociation (feat. Chloe Hotline)

I thought I told you that I'm off drugs

This time imma be for real

This time ima keep it trill

Cause lies can get people killed

But I'm tryna wind

Could you find me a decent seal

If we split the bill

We could split it still

I know I owe you from last time

But I'm on my last dime

And I got you next if that's fine

Don't mean to be dramatic but this shit is a lifeline

I don't think I'm an addict I'm just really unhappy

Everything on the planet is just speeding right past me

And I blink as the havoc is as real as it's nasty

Pour a drink for the habits to the sink as I'm gagging

I don't think of the damage or how I heave when I'm laughing

I never thought that I'd be fucked like this

I'm on the cold floor

Never felt a hug like this

And to this drink of vodka

I got one last wish

It's rest in peace to this beautiful son of a bitch

Disjoin, divide

To shield my mind

The noises I'll acknowledge

Just to push them outside

I got beside myself

Played how the hand was dealt

I got beside myself

And tried not to worsen

The view in third person

I started running as shadows started to chase me

I had to pick up the pace and fix up my laces

And then

I saw the sun that lit up the pavement

And I saw your face in the grace and it was amazing

Is this a daydream or dissociation?

That embrace feels like heaven waiting

No need for sedation

Though I've been cursed with my many ailments

I feel grateful for your presence

I feel grateful for your patience

And time was ticking and I was dead in the hole

Drenched in the soil water

Dead even for I got up

Take me lord

If it's all

Set in stone

Please no more

I give up

Yes you win

Less is more

I am yours

Heard the call

From the doldrums

Like a bell in a storm

As we sailed in the boat

To the place that we are

We remain as we are

And we cherish the thought

Of just us

It's just us

Anywhere that we are

They'd rather you stay square

Just to fit in your plans but I

Never would I'm too parallelogram I

Fighting the settings and this the last stand I

Withdrew myself it was all in advance I—

The more you know about yourself the better

Rewrite your history before you lose that feather

Figure it out, figure it out

The shield ain't all the way down

All the way down

Figure it out, figure it out

Figure it out, figure it out

The shield ain't all the way down

All the way down

And it won't cost when it count

Cost when it counts

And I'm starting to feel like I'm back in control

And I start to feel like I'm past this road

And I'm starting to feel like I'm back in control

And I start to feel like I'm past this road

And I'm starting to feel like I'm back in control