Dear Kai (Prison Tapes)

Yeah

Hey Kye

Ha

You know daddy love you, right?

Look

Dear Kye

Hope you don't think that the reason

Why I'm in here is 'cause I'm wildin'

Daddy, he just lost his trial and they got me for something violent

D.A. talkin' 22 years, I couldn't even fucking tell you

It was way too hard to just be honest

Glass visits, told your mama not to

Bring you for the first three months

I couldn't let you witness daddy at the bottom

You was only five, plus I brought you every single day to trial

Knew that deep down I was going in, so I would fake a smile

Paparazzi flashing at us, I know you don't understand

But you still my little man

Every single minute of that trial week

That I brought you out to court, the public said it's underhand

I really brought you 'cause I didn't know if I'd see you again

Mommy didn't know what to do, daddy was out on a jail

Mommy started drinking more but she hid it from you well

You miss daddy, I know why, I just see it in your eyes

All them little nights you cried, I could see it when you smiled

It hurts me to death when I look at you and I see my eyes

I remember Christmas when I went in

I didn't have enough money to give you a lie

Daddy felt so helpless on that day that he

Sat up inside a cell and all he did was cry

See, daddy bank accounts was frozen and his accountants left him

So everybody that told him they'd hold him down went suicide

I had to call you on that phone and read you a poem

'Cause I ain't had no dough to get you through the times

I just want you to know that you the reason why I keep

On fighting these powerful people in these crucial times

Take care your mama, you my roller

Always know that I made you a soldier, now

Hush little baby, don't you cry

Everything's gonna be alright

Told your mama you a soldier, that's what I told ya

And if she need ya, then hold her through the night

I know daddy not there right now and you don't know why

Make you wonder when I'm coming by

But I promise I'll be back for my little soldier

I told ya, until I'm home, boy, I'm finna fight

I remember it was April 12th, county jail

Daddy, he just wasn't there

First birthday I ever missed

Daddy felt alone, it felt like no one's there

So he shut himself down from the world and he ain't phonin' in

I know that it only affected you, it was nothing fair

Mommy, she love you so much, she started getting cleaned up

But when you had to stay with Ashley, I know that that seemed sus

Even though your mama came with drama

She was always strong enough to hold you up just for the both of us

I wonder how you really feeling lately

Uncle Jay is crazy, ain't he?

But he loves you and he stays with you the days that I just can't be

Also understand that Rico is your little brother

I need you both to keep each other's safety

'Cause they gave daddy all these years

Promise that I'll make it home 'til the day I make it there

Court case, ten years, ain't no one can say it's fair

But that's how they play the cards, you know they don't play 'em fair

Daddy will be always there and that's word to Rico too

Daddy will be always there, I know that you'll be there too

All the shit I'm hearing 'bout is dumb noise

I just wanna get home to my young boys

Hush little baby, don't you cry

Everything's gonna be alright

Told your mama you a soldier, that's what I told ya

And if she need ya, then hold her through the night

I know daddy not there right now and you don't know why

Make you wonder when I'm coming by

But I promise I'll be back for my little soldier

I told ya, until I'm home, boy, I'm finna fight

Hey Kye and Rico, I promise I'ma see you home

I promise, bro