MILES AWAY from heaven

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, whoa

I talk my shit

Yeah

I know depression, I met her and fell in love

Fuck a hug, I found a best friend with the drugs

Hopefully this pill'll turn me back to person that I was

'Cause, honestly, I'd rather go to Xannybars than to a club

The only one who really loves me is the plug

Otherwise, he wouldn't treat me like he does

Stupid, of course I'd be judged, but the hate feels so much better than the love

I only want to see my daughters when I'm buzzed

Let me sip this drink

Happiness cheated on me, I got attached to lonely

No, I ain't crazy, I hate that you put that jacket on me

An OD would be a blessing, I swear

If God decide to take me now, make sure His angels prepare

To carry my heavy soul to where it's about to go

Feel like I already know it ain't heaven, fasho

Who cares? I need my fix, and don't nobody care I exist

I go to rehab 'cause you asked, but that don't mean I'ma quit

Death gotta be a block party

'Cause life is hard

A psych ward in my bedroom, not so far (Not so far)

Wish heaven was a mile away

Wish heaven was a mile away

Wish heaven was a mile away

I'd fill my tank and leave this place forever

Look, I got stranded with regrets, I'm not invested in the steps

Can't be eleven of them left

It's no blanket for the sweats

Is you gon' hold me when I ache

And tell me everything's okay before I break?

So why the fuck would you just leave me in this place?

I got to laugh to stop from crying, overthinkin' when I'm silent

Shoulda died and made you perfect, That would numb all of my problems

Anxiety through the roof and my dogs can't help me

In school I would suppress the pain, but I always felt it

Need an electrician, my light is the dimmest, not the best swimmer

Adolescent years, I fished for attention, I'm bad for business

Suicide playin', out in my mental, I'm tired of living

You would only understand if you were me for just a minute

Sometimes I sit in my car with the radio off

Tryna listen to the sound of my heart

I've digested all the lessons that society taught

Wish I could hold it all together, but I'm falling apart

Death gotta be a block party, 'cause life is hard

A psych ward in my bedroom, not so far

Wish heaven was a mile away

Wish heaven was a mile away

Wish heaven was a mile away

I'd fill my tank and leave this place forever

And I know death gotta be easy, 'cause life is hard

Death gotta be easy, 'cause life is hard

Death gotta be easy, 'cause life is hard

Death gotta be easy, 'cause life is—