Behind The Veil

People tell me they love me

but I fear it’s a motive

I was Born with the drive

Now I feel like a chauffeur

Had to bury dad

never getting that closure

All this pain in my heart

carry the world on my shoulders

Some people left for dead

maybe that’s all in my head

Are you getting the message

when you leave on read?

Feel like it needs to be said

I ain't need to be led

Bunch of felons and addicts

everyday in my crib

I ain’t end up like them

do you know where I'm from?

I'm from the bottom, the slums

where toddlers hold guns

Where they fight over crumbs

where a chance never comes

When they shoot, better run

where the truth never comes

Where they cook up a lie

and they serve it well done

Where they’re serving their time

in a cell so young

Used to think it was fun, stealing cars shooting guns

Now we pray for tomorrow

but tomorrow never come

I go sleep every night

Wake up cold sweats

Toss and turn in my sheets

Ask the Lord, what's next?

All this pain in my heart

Can't live with regrets

Gave it all that I had

Ain’t got nothing left

I go sleep every night

Wake up cold sweats

Toss and turn in my sheets

Ask the Lord, what's next?

All this pain in my heart

Can't live with regrets

Gave it all that I had

Ain’t got nothing left

Living in the struggle

got me questioning fate

Is this real life?

Did God make a mistake?

Every step that I take

feels like carrying weight

Hustling hard every day

just to make ends meet

Growing up in the trenches

I learned how to survive

Had to fight for my life

just to stay alive

Dreams of getting out

but the streets pull me back

Voices all in my head

keeping me on the track

Lost a lot of friends

watched them fade to black

Memories of dad

they replay in my mind

Keep trying to find peace

but it's hard to find

All this pain inside

bottled up and confined

Every day that I grind

hoping that I see a sign

Started studying Braille

just in case go blind

New case, same crime,

more time for my kind

Tell me When we learn

what’s theirs ain’t mine

I go sleep every night

Wake up cold sweats

Toss and turn in my sheets

Ask the Lord, what's next?

All this pain in my heart

Can't live with regrets

Gave it all that I had

Ain’t got nothing left

I go sleep every night

Wake up cold sweats

Toss and turn in my sheets

Ask the Lord, what's next?

All this pain in my heart

Can't live with regrets

Gave it all that I had

Ain’t got nothing left

Written by Chrisden White