Walking to My Grave Again (feat. Magick)

We know you bitches hate us, but still wanna imitate us

Quick to degrade us, but never will you fade us

Haters tryin' to make us lose this, saying I'm not a killa, boy, I prove it

Do it in an instance, rippin' through intestines

When I get to stressin' I feel this way, no sunny days, I walk in the rain

Ashamed of this pain that I have to face, frontin' everyday like I'm okay

But everybody knows, it's been the same, just more bullshit piles on my plate

It's really hard to put a smile on my face, I've lost the race giving up the chase

My body hurts so much I can't pick up the pace

I'm walking slowly towards my grave, hoping I can make that change

Win or lose, I'm in this game and if I fail, then I'm to blame

Aim your gun right at my head

Let the blood shed, paint the pavement red

Bullets embedded in my brain and I'm dead

See my life in a flash as I lay there and bled

Razor blades and alcohol, mix it all with adderall

On my knees I start to crawl, blood and guts smeared on the walls

Baby doll this my last letter, I hope from now things will get better

I told you we'll always be together in hell's flames we'll burn forever

Walkin' to my grave again, walkin' to my grave again

We're living our life in sin, walkin' to my grave again

Walkin' to my grave again, walkin' to my grave again

We're living our life in sin, walkin' to my grave again

I fuckin' hate myself, it's incredible that I wanna leave this place

I fear the sight of my mother at my grave

Crying for her first born, this brings me pain

I don't really wanna feel no more, God can you hear me? Take this away

Every step that I take is one step closer

It's getting really hard to try and keep my composure

Acting like I'll be alright but the truth is

I don't even really know what I'm doin'

I feel useless, confused and stupid

Psychotic and they found no solution

Everyone's got a problem in their life man

Nobody's perfect and you gotta try to understand

That most people will bring you down

Most people will let you drown

You gotta get up, keep on fighting

Get away from depression, I keep on writing

Keep my dreams in my heart, right on my eyelids

Keep my smile on my face even when they deny us

I got a gift so I gotta use it

Even when I break down I keep drudgin through it

Thinkin to myself everything is fine keep on movin'

Even when the cards stacked against me (Not losing)

I refuse to lay down and die, it's not in me

I am not leaving, I will keep fighting till my last breath

Clenching my chest, taking this stress

One day at a time, soon enough we all die anyways

Might as well walk towards that grave

With a smile on your face till your very last day

Walkin' to my grave again, walkin' to my grave again

We're living our life in sin, walkin' to my grave again

Walkin' to my grave again, walkin' to my grave again

We're living our life in sin, walkin' to my grave again

Every step that I take, I'm a little closer to my grave

I hope my soul can still be saved, even though I know I misbehaved

I steady put the pen to the pad

Sing these songs, mic in hand, offer love of the fan

Game on till light down, so they say, you can never have it all

I say, you can always get up from a fall

Steady with the steps, you gotta learn to crawl

Who says you can't have it all

So with every step I take is one closer to my grave

I'mma savor every ripple I make to look back just to say

I'm from the home of mirrors, so many others pray

Purple hearts and all those medals engraved

But I have honor runnin' through my veins

I'm no span up, so lames, listen to me I don't play no games

The secret it's all yours to tame, take a stand and stake it claim

This is how dreams are made

Live your life to the fullest like you're heading to your grave

Walkin' to my grave again, walkin' to my grave again

We're living our life in sin, walkin' to my grave again

Walkin' to my grave again, walkin' to my grave again

We're living our life in sin, walkin' to my grave again

There are no more barriers to cross

All I have in common with the uncontrollable

And the insane, the vicious and the evil

All the mayhem I have caused

And my utter indifference toward it

I have now surpassed

My pain is constant and sharp

And I do not hope for a better world for anyone

In fact I want my pain to be inflicted on others

I want no one to escape

But even after admitting this

There is no catharsis

My punishment continues to elude me

And I gain no deeper knowledge of myself;

No new knowledge can be extracted from my telling

This confession has meant nothing