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Side Effects
105
Hip-Hop
Side Effects dirilis pada 13 November 2015 oleh Equal Vision Records sebagai bagian dari album Chemical Imbalance: Another Dose
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Tanggal Rilis13 November 2015
LabelEqual Vision Records
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Melodiksi
Level Akustik
Valence
Kemampuan untuk menari
Energi
BPM67

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Minutes passed and the time went on
As I'm looking back on the wasted year
Alone in my room with the torment of doom
And a case of beer couldn't face my fear
With these four walls that I called home
Well, I'm painting the windows black
On the raw medication thoughts started racing
Chest bursting, heart palpitations
Gone numb, my limbs started shaking
And it seems that I can't go escape it
Cause my doctors and therapists are telling me this sickness I created
With a year of the preparation
In the course of my desperation
I was lost and my friends mistaken
Asking how was my vacation
Like the time away from work
Tied away and hurt was recreation
Suicidal thoughts and panic attacks on social separation
But I'm forced to pose and fake it
Wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy
Suddenly I gone heavenly
Talk about God, "Can you please just grant me serenity?"
Like yeah I'm suddenly religious
But honestly who was I kidding?
Father Jewish, mother Christian
Who married a Mormon, faith nonexistent
With a church that steal from collection plates
Taking money stuffed in my pockets
Went to school when I'm forced to
And shove bobby pins in the electric sockets
I'm thinking the doctor's tests are not correct
My opinion's irrelevant
They say it's a chemical imbalance
But there ain't no scientific evidence
But it's evident that I've never been the same
Just got better at hiding the pain
My reflection, I couldn't frame
My complexion, I couldn't erase
I couldn't make the mold of this mask any better
Holding it fast, trying to cope with the past
Alone and I hope it could last
Mold on my shoulder growing too fast
Heart getting colder, frozen, grew black
Still I find peace in the boom bap
Why I do rap with a crew full of new jacks
Never lose that, uh
I'm trying to live my dream in private jets
But I can't get past all these side effects
I smile and nod and try to hide it best
But I can't get past all these side effects
But I'm hoping that I could be wrong
That I could find a reason that I suffered this long
And I'm hoping that I could move on
That I could find beauty in the words of this song
Locked behind these xanny bars
Drowning inside this alcohol
Depending on these chemicals
Only thing that I found compatible
Any problem I choose to tackle
I would do with a two-tone capsule
Being stuck in a lose-lose battle
Going cuckoo, I was scared of my shadow
Paint over the pain, no spackle
Take chances on my brain, no raffle
I stand in the rain as I soak 'til I'm carried afloat
Like a boat, no paddle
Getting tired of blaming genetics
But I know the machine is defective
So are we imperfectly perfect?
Or excuse ourselves for depression?
All the time that I'm wishing to be someone else
Could've used to improve myself
All the personal flaws, I was cursed by all
Turn your back, I could use your help
But I moved through hell
With a few screws loose, in the past I dwell
And in fact I fail
In regrets and careers to attract my sales
Relationships I'm destroying
Swallow pride to collect unemployment
It escaped in the pay so imagine the day
When a show was delayed and avoided
All because these side effects
So many years to get my mind correct
So many tears, feeling like it's time to rest
But these night terrors are inside my head
Insomnia, check, vertigo, check
And the curtains closed, so not a person knows
I haven't learned to cope yet
Edible tablets are stacked
During this chemical balancing act
I enter the center of gravity happily
Never go back
I'm trying to live my dream in private jets
But I can't get past all these side effects
I smile and nod and try to hide it best
But I can't get past all these side effects
But I'm hoping that I could be wrong
That I could find a reason that I suffered this long
And I'm hoping that I could move on
That I could find beauty in the words of this song
But I'm hoping that I could be wrong
That I could find a reason that I suffered this long
And I'm hoping that I could move on
That I could find beauty in the words of this song
But I'm hoping that I could be wrong
That I could find a reason that I suffered this long
And I'm hoping that I could move on
That I could find beauty in the words of this song
Written by: Crystal Johnson, Jay Jenkins, Mariah Carey, Scott Storch
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