Can't Rest

Me and Rates found a magnum .44 It was my dads we was asking him what thats for He said he had some enemies and we were too young He said mum had left him, he can't tell us too much We went back home to mums now we broke as She always crying, she depressed I Need to go back and work out what the fuck was up It's been buried, block it out now we fucked on drugs And mum can't work out why cops cuffin' us Slapped Rates in the face cause he puffed and buzzed And my dad used to ring when he was drunk as fuck I hear him fightin' with mum, I think he loves her but I'm only 10 years old now I hug my little brother Love my mother and my father but theres gotta be another Way for us, I watched it fall apart I'm 11 years old with a broken heart It's kinda funny cause the shit that teared my family apart Is the same reason why my girls leaving, gotta laugh Life that I know, live in pain, gotta go Cause my brain doesn't know why I play in the zone On the streets doin' breaks where my fate would lay Felt so locked in, couldn't break away Don't feel the same today, cause rap saved my life And when Rates hears this will he play it twice Or are the memories too much, remember it true bruzz Come along the road, don't forget what I do cuzz You doin it too, make moves and march on Take my life now this could be my last song, I'm gone Life just ticks, I might just quit In a life like this, s is my life just shit? I got a feeling that for me it's kinda on its way I had to tell you why I'm here I'm being honest aye I picture gun blasts, two cunts, one mask My thin blood marks walls, fuck I must laugh That's a dream that I had on my birthday Just luck that I fit it in with word play Now if that happens I am right I was a genius If it doesn't I am paranoid I mean this Theres my life hate I'm used to it Last 10 years mate got me movin' quick And I fight with my girl like a movie flick Cause she listening to rumours by a groupie bitch I can't take this shit, I'mma break to bits I got my taste of fame and it tastes like shit Everyone talk shit and they takin' shots They don't know who I am but they breakin' Scott Is there anyone there that could make it stop I don't need no ho tryin' to take it off I just need my road when I'm takin' off And I hit that stage while I'm blazing pot This the life of a rock star stuck in the past Thats the 2-2-5 yeah I'm chuckin it up Need space today, I need to take my brain Reconstruct that shit before its sprayed away today Yeah, let it roll, yeah Tell me do you hear this, write a review They say I can't rap deep what you like me to do? You wanna hear about a blade tucked since I hit 17 Paranoid, fucked up, like I think they gettin' me You wanna hear about smoking till your chest claps Or 16, doing breaks I need to get that Or bills piling up on top of the fridge Mum yelling at the paper, how she gonna pay this How we got a place to live but its slipping quick She has to split, need my own place I'm spinning out shit But I moved out young, turned boy to man I got my dad pride now, come and join the clan Now I don't give a fuck and I'm ready for war I'll take your head from your neck leave your head at your door Fuck everyone dissin', you dont know what I am I'm a motherfuckin soldier and I'm goin at them That's why I'm sellin' CD's on the verge of greatness Once this drops I'll be referred to as the greatest So sit back theres no reason to hate And if you still hate me now, best believe that your fake aye X2 No way will I end it now I gotta take these thoughts and send em out I am lost so lost but I need a buzz Cause it helps me knowin' fans need me cuz