Collapse and Appear

He used to laugh the loudest, now it never shows He tried to be the tallest, but he never grows He watched his brother die and never told He looked around and knew he had to go He knew his father had a better dream But you can't learn from what you've never seen He tried to mingle with these jealous thieves Watch a human interact with a machine (Watch a human interact with a machine) (Watch a human get abused by a machine) Now he's useless, and stupid and obscene Watch a human interact with a machine (Watch a human interact with a machine) (Watch a human interact with a machine) He never leaves, he never leaves He comes and he goes, but he never leaves He never breathes, he never breathes He inhales and exhales, but he never breathes He never leaves, he never leaves He comes and he goes, but he never leaves He never breathes, he never breathes He inhales and exhales, but he never breathes I fell apart and took my mind with me I have been barely sustaining My pain just marinating I fell apart and took my mind with me Just a ghost cloaked in lies with a broken spine Fell apart and took my mind with me Just an unrecognizable creature, caught under an avalanche Fell apart and took my mind with me My presence unnerving, I'm a shadow always lurking Surrounded by death Even the towel rack reminds me of the handles pallbearers grip tightly on the way out of church What they use to lift you up into the back of that hearse I see a woman tighten grip on her purse Can't be offended, she doesn't know my intentions She imagines the worst Around here, the conditions severe Around here, you tightrope between detachment and fear Between the shattered fragments of existence that collapse and appear Never changes, just exacerbates depression deeper year after year Pain weaving in, pain weaving out Heartworms, sharp turns, sparse words, scars, burns I spent a long time dying, don't wake me up yet Public executions, you'll never see me upset Force-fed myself with blow, but now I settle for sedatives No longer in the streets, I belong in the crevices Positively negative, popular I've never been Hard to be a person when you lack the mental requisites Emotionally deficit, consumed with all the wretchedness Not optimist or pessimist, my politics are in exodus Spouting countless fountains out while drowning in the brine My life's the foulest algorithm science can't define They trap you in these systems that are phallic in design Because they fuck you in the mind Boy, they fuck you all the time I fell apart and took my mind with me Being strung up at the ligaments with cultural derivatives Fell apart and took my mind with me Pronounced dead by a nemesis, a doubt without a benefit I fell apart and took my mind with me Just a cluster of atoms thrust deep in a chasm I feel apart, and now your mind is with me Smoke in your eyes, the world's a joke in disguise