Guilt & Grief

I ain't shot up in a long time Though my arms still hold the tracks But my heart is scarred much deeper From the church and hypocrites And I ain't felt love in a decade Though a thousand know my face But I'd trade my reputation For a drop of grace But I hold to my remorse I can feel it like a force Driving down within my bones To cast aside And I'm here with my regret Cause I ain't got nothing left But the guilt and grief that Beg me change my mind I used to wanna be like Jesus To lay my head upon his chest Now I find I'm more like Judas At my very best But I'm here with my remorse Can't you hear it in my voice As I cry don't turn your back On your own son And I hang on this regret Cause I know I've nothing left But the guilt and grief Reminding me what I've done Sometimes I don't believe in anything at all But I'm crawling through my pain Bloody knees and open veins Is it worth the risk to pour out all these words Not that anyone has heard Or that anyone has a cure Now I'm spilling all my secrets But I've got a thousand more I'm a killer, I'm a vagrant A thief, a junkie, and a whore So I pray for more remorse To feel it in my voice Like a prison train to set my spirit free And I'll kill all this regret If it's the only thing that's left With my guilt and grief I bury inside me