Phantom Pain

There are so many things that have yet to kill me, but not you, because you cannot kill what you don’t understand

I am more than the ghost you left me

You don’t know me, and you never will

All these years and I’m doing just fine

You don’t know me, and you never will

And if you’re even listening, and you thought you’d figured that you did all you can, yeah I fucking know it

This reflection hurts, and I’ve got the scars to show it

So take a good fucking look at me. I have compiled bone from the rubble you left me

So play it again and again until you’re clear

You’re not a man, you’re a fucking disgrace

No tears for when you die

You’re a failure

There are so many things that have yet to kill me, but not you, because you cannot kill what you don’t understand

I am more than the ghost you left me

You don’t know me, and you never will

All these years and I’m doing just fine

You don’t know me, and you never will

You’re less than nothing

When I think about the child that I might have, how I could make real all the things that I am, not for one second could I see myself leaving

This is the only responsibility I could ever have

If I gave breath to another person, I couldn’t bear the thought of not guiding their hand through this life

For I know the feeling of absence, it weighs on my soul, it constricts me of air

If I held my child in my arms, I would never, ever let go

There are so many things that have yet to kill me, but not you, because you cannot kill what you don’t understand

I am more than the ghost you left me

You don’t know me, and you never will

All these years and I’m doing just fine

You don’t know me, and you never will