Lately I can’t sleep

I’ve been under stress

My minds under pressure

My body needs rest

And I try to relax Slowly I’m counting my breaths

But no matter what, no how, I can’t get from under this depth

I’ve got something to confess

Lately I’m fucking depressed

Waking up after noon, like why bother getting dressed

Like the reflection of my room, both of us are a mess

Yet I go out and I’m looking my best

I put on a smile but don’t you put my patience to the test

This is my house

You are a guest

And right now I’m not taking any request

I am the quiet type but lately I’ve got too much weight to get off my chest

Like who would have guessed, I’d be at the edge of my desk

My ego is getting obsessed, full of regrets

But you get what you get, you don’t get upset

And I’m getting it in

Fuck what they said, all of these voices they all in my head

All they keep doing is bringing me down

And they keep coming around like the demons outside of my bed

Seriously, every night they’ve been harassing me

Yo it’s Blasphemy

But forreal, you should hear the questions they’ve been asking me

Like what the fuck are you doing?

And who the hell are you kidding, man?

Why do you keep pursuing this pipe dream when you don’t even have a back up plan

You keep thinking you can make it, reality says that you don’t have a chance

And you had your fifteen minutes on youtube when you used to dance

So Duda, forreal, fuck how you feel

Who in the right mind’s gone give you a deal

Who in the right mind will listen to you

When your music is so low with no mass appeal

Come keep it real

How are you ever gone stack up a mill

When you haven’t begun to do shit with your life

And at the rate that you’re going, man you never will and That’s real

Maybe too real

And it’s no surprise I can’t sleep at night

When I’m terrified of my own demise

So much that I’m afraid to live my life

I’m Living my life

But how would I know if I’m living it right?

I’m so insecure and my biggest fear is being named a failure, overnight

So I, claw and I fight

Yeah I give it my all every night

I’d sacrifice everything that I have, my pen and my pad, the words that I write

With so many paths in my sight

Do I turn left or should I break right?

Or do I just go with the flow, dip through the lows and hurdle the heights

No end in my sights

One hell of a price

My eyes on the prize, that’s my silver lining

I walk towards the light

My demons and shadows all follow behind me

And Once I get where I’m going, I don’t expect no one to find me

I don’t believe in achieving perfection

Just leaving directions of my perfect timing

I’m tired of being reminded of all my flaws

I’ve made some mistakes and broken some laws

One thing I can say is I learned from it all

Saw myself fall, picked myself up

So I don’t give a fuck what anybody says to me

This is my life, no one else is gonna paint the pictures of my destiny

So I trade tonight’s rest and peace

In hopes one day I get to rest in peace

You see the recipe for success to me

Consist of more than my legacy

And lately my ego’s been testing me

This lack of sleep has been stressing me

But there's no way I’m about to let self-doubt get the best of me

I follow my heart, do what I love, and always stay driven

But after some time, it feels like my mind has become a prison

And I intertwine between being a hero and being a villain

And this is my story, yeah this is my story, and I’m ready and willing to accept the call

So fuck all the questions you ask me

Don’t bother me, don’t harass me

And don’t talk to me about the past

This is more than my passion, my call to action, life everlasting, yeah

And when i get discouraged with myself, I just stick to the facts man…

Yeah stick to the facts man, yeah, stick to the facts man

I feel like I’m on a runaway train on a one way track and

I’m not turning back, this is my life and before I lose it

All I wanna do with the time that I have is use it keep bringing you all this music