Stage Fright

Fear is not real. [yes, yes] the only place that fear can exist is in our thoughts [sometimes …] of the future. it is a product of our imagination [... sometimes, you just—you just try to get a feeling back.] causing us to fear things that do not, at present, & may [like now.] not ever, exist.

You are now witnessing

A tamer version of my sickest sins.

There is not a box that i will fit within.

Live within the complicated, complex

Storm after the calm. it’s

Further explanation of my thicker skin.

Listening to nonsense.

This is what my charm gets.

But i can only hear it

‘cause i keep it at an arm’s length.

Knew they wanted me gone before i came

But i came still.

Nothing prepare you for being pressed more than pain will.

Game, skill,

Preparation, extra patience,

Aim, kill,

Less debating, check my face & see

That it ain’t changed still.

Cold heart.

Old art. arthritic pain pills.

Show starts.

I can feel the same as when i made real

Music.

Shame. feel foolish

When i stay still doing

What i used to.

Try to keep my mind in what i

Choose to.

I won’t be defined by what confuse you.

Even though i am, if i can plan it,

I can shoot through

Space like

Take flight,

Organize, & plot like it’s a stage i

Stand on.

Act accordingly, & then i brake like

Breaks might surely lead to brake lights.

Filaments & sentences

With sentiments i fill ‘em with:

Stage fright.

That is near insanity. [i know.] now do not misunderstand me, danger is very real, but fear is a choice.

So, turn the music … [hands up. hands up. hands up. hands up.]

& keep it up … [hands up. hands up.]

We are all telling ourselves a story.

Now put your hands … [hands up. hands up. hands up. hands up.]

& keep ‘em up … [hands up. hands up.]

Yes, yes.

… a few enthusiasts banded together, then they opened their circle to anyone in town who showed an interest in their particular activity.

It was by this means that decatur’s people developed one of the finest gun clubs in the country.