Written and Rephrased

I now know that there is no escape

No expiration that will be my grace

No release from what I wake up with every single day

I see your face behind the flames

Fingers pick scabs to blood

No healing, no restoration

I'd do anything to keep it away

Anything for a moment of peace

Anything but do what they say

Anything but admit that maybe I'm not okay

Anything but say that I like feeling this way

No more hesitation

Instigated by my own chemistry

No comfort in your company

No need to repeat anymore

Because now I'm listening to every word that you ever said

Waiting for an explanation to how you got in my head

Everything I've learned, written and rephrased

Progression of nothing, it all stays the same

The same, the same

I still can't be left alone

I'm still rotting away

My brain is the hammered stone where you built your home

The home where we both lived for as long as I can remember

They say satisfaction is the death of desire

But no one knows how deep in this mire

I have found myself

And I'm so tired

I'm so tired

Of not being strong

Of not being proud or brave

'Cause I don't know how much more of this I can take

When this has become my every day

I know love had to leave

But why did I have to stay?

Take me

Please take me

Take me

Please take me away