Sanity

Not all fairytales are happy when they end

Not all sermons give forgiveness for your debt

How come all these little lies I tell myself just ain't enough

I can’t stand to be, my enemy

But sometimes to stay alive you gotta kill your sanity

(sometimes to stay alive you gotta kill your sanity)

Pardon my lyrics, I've been feeling rather low,

and yes, I know, that I can't help but take a sec to show

you everything thats been up on my mind, I wrote a song last year to try and help you understand that these days I’m taking the time to find

Out who I am, what I’m not, How I stand, how to walk

Cause the Nike’s on my feet have never taught me how to stop

Or how to sleep, when my anxiety gets the better of me,

I feel like i’ve been on the go, constantly, outrunning my dreams

See, it all started when I was only a kid

And Doctors told me I was too broken to ever try to fix

issues with self esteem, finding worth, taking pills to numb the words

talking through problems with others all for sake of healing hurt

Cause when we get older, it feels like baggage starts to chip and trip us up on our journeys

until we stop giving a shit

next thing you know, we get jaded, which leads to getting faded, saving face and losing faith of ever believing in reaching

Not all fairytales are happy when they end

And not all sermons give forgiveness for your debt

How come all these little lies I tell myself just aint enough

I can’t stand to be, my enemy

But Sometimes to feel alive you gotta kill your sanity

(sometimes to feel alive you gotta kill your sanity)

So what I preached previous has to have a point

Im saying its been hard walking through life without a joint

Cause sometimes feeling numb is better than knowing all the weight and the pressure

Keeps disappointing myself until I’m feeling less and less and (less and)

 

Lessons are harder trying to learn a second go around

Believe me I got stuck a couple years trying to figure out

that learning to love yourself before you can love somebody else

Is key to a healthy relationship, and thats the greatest wealth

I aint a saint, and I’m still making mistakes

I know it makes me human till the day i leave this body in a grave

But now I understand a little more about stopping problems

before they turn to qualities I hate, that cloud my thoughts

Im not that great with writing positive,

I know its out of character,

But recently I got tired of grudges and rapping despair

With all thats going on, I wanna make a platform

Dedicated to finding light

Among all these fears that rule my nights

Not all fairytales are happy when they end

Not all sermons give forgiveness for your debt

How come all these little lies I tell myself just aint enough?

I can’t stand to be, my enemy

But Sometimes to feel alive you gotta kill your sanity

(Sometimes to feel alive you gotta kill your sanity)

(Sometimes to feel alive you gotta kill your sanity)