One of Those Moments (feat. Mariah Rose Faith)

Guess this is one of those moments I have to make a choice Whats wrong whats right gets lost in the noise I just rewind in my mind and I try to review So maybe I'll know what to do I try to hide from these moments That way I can't regret The thoughts I fear are ones I forget They never leave though They still linger under my skin This mess that I'm in That kiss was a domino falling My whole life I've been stalling Hoping I could run from it That bliss was reality calling It was all so jarring Everything changed And I'll never be the same All that I've known Is feeling alone I'm not used to having a throne If I stand tall Maybe I'll fall Then what's the point of it all Is perfect ever really worth it Or do we lose things on the way Why is it I'm always asked for answers When there's so many things I can't say Guess this is one of those moments I have to pick a side Choose one lose one It's power or pride I keep the peace or I keep all the people I love Fate won't you give me a shove What exactly am I fearing Just one more year till collage Why wear a mask and act if it's all only short term polish When did prevention take all my attention I used to be a badass loser Grades were lower worries fewer Now I've built a wall that's made of stone All that I've known Is feeling alone I'm not used to having a throne If I stand tall Maybe I'll fall Then what's the point of it all Dad you would know what to say You always had such a way You made it all seem so easy I didn't get that from you Instead I found something new I ask what if no one sees me And even worse if they do But find disgust in the view You gave me life and I screw it all For what Love But all that I've known Is feeling alone Don't wanna fall off the throne If I stand tall And if I fall What was the point of it all Will you promise me you still love me Even if I tell you that I'm Why am I Asking you these questions When I know there's nothing You can say