Looking Back

After all of this now

Well I guess I'm looking back

In the middle of all of this

I didn't think I'd make it far enough to say that

There's a whole lot of the quiet kinda sorrow

And an uncertain pressing more

But now I know I can say for sure

I'm not that girl from before

I may crash and burn more often

But all that means

Is I'm getting stronger

From picking myself up

And I may break a little harder

Cuz hell can do that to someone

But that doesn't mean I haven't started to see my

Half-full cup

I don't wish you ill

Because to hate you is to hate myself

But instead i'm trying to move on

And accept that you're someone else

Been praying out loud a lot more

Been trying to make sure the good lord is here

I'm still thanking him for all I am

Because despite what you've said

I've learned I am worth more

I may build the walls up higher

But all that means

Is that the people who break them down

Really care

And I may stand a little taller

Because I've learned the hard way

That being on your knees

Just means you're terrified

And now I don't scare

And i'm not your puppet

I broke all your strings

I don't care what you say

About my torn and tattered wings

All is all it is what you make

I won't pretend anymore

That i'm your mistake

I may crash and burn more often

But all that means

Is I'm getting stronger

From picking myself up

And I may break a little harder

Cuz hell can do that to someone

But that doesn't mean I haven't started to see my

Half-full cup

And I may build the walls up higher

But all that means

Is that the people who break them down

Really care

And I may stand a little taller

Because I've learned the hard way

That being on your knees

Just means you're terrified

And now I don't scare