Slot Machine

I took the ferry in at 6am I don't think about my high school friends I spend the day making up stories in my head The tide is higher now than yesterday I've got some problems but they're so cliche Would you miss me if I ever went away I've only ever had the same thoughts over and over again I'm just a vegetable trying to stay alive I think I learned the truth at seventeen How to breathe underwater like a submarine And if I let you play me like a slot machine maybe I'll win sometimes Does your girlfriend wanna stay the night Does she like it when you touch her thigh Does she know I'd let you absolutely ruin my life I've only ever had the same thoughts over and over again I'm just a vegetable trying to stay alive If you think you could love me don't go away yet My fingertips are frozen off from holding up your unrequited offer I like martinis dirty and tequila dry I've been unsatisfied junior high You don't know me but I'll love you till I die Spent all my money on take away Walked along the water and I felt ok I'll live at home just for the holiday and the weekend I've only ever had the same thoughts over and over again I'm just a vegetable trying to stay alive If you think you could love me don't go away yet My fingertips are frozen off from holding up your unrequited offer