Pretenses

You looked at me and tore apart all my defenses

Do you still love me?

Can you forgive me?

I laid it out and set aside all my pretenses

You still don’t know me

I still feel lonely

Can we work it out?

Overcome my doubt?

I tried all that I can to fight this on my own

If I let you in

It might hurt again

But something deep inside can’t bear to let you go

Afraid to look you in the eye I’ve been pretending

I’ll say it clearly

I’m far from holy

The list of ways I let you down is never-ending

Is that the reason

I stopped believing?

Can we work it out?

Overcome my doubt?

I tried all that I can to fight this on my own

If I let you in

It might hurt again

But something deep inside can’t bear to let you go

I’ve had enough

I’m pressing on

I can’t bear to

Live with one foot out the door

No more fear

No more war

I’ve made my choice

No I’m not running anymore

Can we work it out?

Overcome my doubt?

I tried all that I can to fight this on my own

If I let you in

It might hurt again

But something deep inside can’t bear to let you go