Runaway (From Myself)

I didn't grow up in an abusive home, I am one I've tried to leave this sour place a thousand times From the start I made self-sabotage my anthem Like being who I am is self-harm in disguise 'Cause something deep inside me's broken I'm not allowed to feel a thing Every loving word means nothing I'm obsessed with suffering Lately, thinking feels like cutting Every thought's a razor blade (If only I had someone else to blame) Wish I could run away From myself, from myself But there is no escape When you're the prison cell Wish I could run away From myself, from myself I plead for better days But get thrown back in hell Wish I could run away from myself Wish I could run away from myself Who the hell can forgive my sins? I wrote this gospel Stuck in a cage of skin that always will remind me That all the alcohol can't numb this, I'm the bottle Whoever changed just to kill this ghost will change my mind Wish I could run away From myself, from myself But there is no escape When you're the prison cell Wish I could run away From myself, from myself I plead for better days But get thrown back in hell Wish I could run away from myself Wish I could run away 'Cause something deep inside me's broken I'm not allowed to feel a thing Every loving word means nothing I'm obsessed with suffering Lately, thinking feels like cutting Every thought's a razor blade If only I had someone else to blame Wish I could run away From myself, from myself But there is no escape When you're the prison cell Wish I could run away From myself, from myself I plead for better days But get thrown back in hell I didn't grow up in an abusive home, I am one