The Mystery

Her lips draped in crimson The soft touch of her skin Brings me bliss in the mist of the morning Saying the things The things that make me sing Words that get my broken heart beating Is what I used to say Now you're just dead to me After all the scars you left on me I always push away the ones that are meant to stay Because I am afraid for my own hearts sake Drowning in this lake until I awake I tried to hide from the inevitable Disassociating from reality to find a sense of peace Blurry thoughts of a possible future Jokes on me for Holding on to a false structure Thinking of days when we were younger And less bitter clearly saved for another Painted a wrong picture of my own future I take the blame for not seeing it sooner You fucking loser I always push away the ones that are meant to stay Because I am afraid for my own hearts sake Swim until I can't feel my limbs The end looks so god damn grim Oh Swim until I suffocate A lie I just couldn't escape Dream of future better days The mystery that I create I always push away the ones that are meant to stay Because I am afraid for my own hearts sake Try to look deep inside To see if I'm dead or alive Too tired to fight to survive Flipped upside down to finally thrive I tried to suffice this mystery Of a dream that I create subconsciously