A Letter To My Future Self

As the emptiness surrounds me

I'm left with nothing but sheer regret

The weight of my guilt pulling me deeper and deeper

My mind consumed by shadows of what could have been

I drown in sorrow, my heart screams out in vain

For everything I've lost and everything I could have saved

Now trapped in a vicious cycle

Of regret and the purest form of pain

My mind races with the thought

That I may be the one to blame

Now choking in an endless cycle

Of regret and the purest form of pain

My mind purges few memories

The ones I am most ashamed

The despair that once broke us

Now ties our hearts together

You're now a vessel roaming in my veins forever

There was only despair to connect our souls

And I was too blind to see your life as my own

Was it the lack of devotion?

Or is it just a cruel illusion that keeps dragging me down?

Down

I try to run... but the chains of my past insist on dragging me down

Truth is, I left you alone for years, and I knew you were down

I was unable to suffer along, no matter how much I tried

Down... I'm sorry I left you down

I'm sorry I left you down in hell

Was it the lack of devotion?

Or is it just a cruel illusion?

There was only despair to connect our souls

And I was too blind to see your life as my own

There was only despair to connect our souls

And I was too blind to see your life as my own

Distant memories... now too far to reach

Reminding me of all I've lost

I won't forgive myself for giving up on you

We will meet again one day, in hell