I Don't Belong Here

Directing my illusive state

Pouring dirt on my clean slate

Robbing myself of a steady heartbeat

Sipping whisky off the floor

Close the curtains, lock the door

Lost in my self abuse

Nothing to hold onto

I’ve seen this all before

I just keep recreating

The part of me that is breaking inside of me

And I just

Can’t seem to let it go

I can’t seem to let it go

On nights when I’m alone

I keep pulling in the side of me

That’s destroying my soul

How do I fill out the emptiness

It’s pulling me a side

I’ve been ruining my life

I tried taking mine

But I can’t even seem to get that right

I swear i only show the side of me

That’s been stained

I keep on fighting and I’m trying

but it’s all the same

Flooded in emotions

I hold on to keep me frozen

But the ice always seems to break

On nights when I’m alone

I keep pulling in the side of me

That’s destroying my soul

How do I fill out the emptiness

It’s pulling me a side

I’ve been ruining my life

I tried taking mine

But I can’t even seem to get that right

I can’t seem to get it right

For all the times

I tried to put myself to sleep

I’ve never flown

To wallow in the clouds

So why do I feel like

I don’t belong

Cause I don’t?

Am I stranger to this

Body I own?

Oh, It’s such a heavy feeling

The nights become a phase

Stuck in thoughts so filled with hate

Is it why I feel like I

I don’t belong here

I feel the weight of the world on my chest so bad

Crushing my cavity to let in the rats

I’ve been waiting for the crows to

Clean me dry to the bone

Of all the sorrow

On nights when I’m alone

I keep pulling in the side of me

That’s destroying my soul

How do I fill out the emptiness

It’s pulling me a side

I’ve been ruining my life

I tried taking mine

On nights when I’m alone

I keep pulling in the side of me

That’s destroying my soul

How do I fill out the emptiness

It’s pulling me a side

I’ve been ruining my life

I tried taking mine

But I can’t even seem to get that right