Torn

One step forward to the finish line

Three leaps backwards wasting my time

I can see that the end is near

But not enough to know that it is crystal clear

What am I supposed to do when

I'm a needle but I don't have a thread

The gap is closing between sane and mad

Taking deep breathes won't get through to my head

Throwing all the darts on the bullseye

Just for them to fall off and leave me dry

Makes me cry

Checking dates off the calendar

As if time couldn't move any faster

Oh it hurts

Running to the closing door

Digging my own grave

Changing my old name

I can't take this anymore

Wanna crack the code but I'm already torn

Staying right here will just

Make me fear all that's let to endure

Wanna pull myself together but

I'm already torn

My bed ain't comfy like it used to be

Just tossing and turning no more dreams

My garbage can is overflowing

With what i thought life would be like

Yhe paranoia of not being first

It's in my blood quenching with thirst

My heart is beating like a drum

But it's beating too fast

Body's scared to turn numb

I think I'm sinking in

I'm drowning caving in

The weight on my shoulders

I guess I'm getting older

Running to the closing door

Digging my own grave

Changing my old name

I can't take this anymore

Wanna crack the code but I'm already torn

Staying right here will just

Make me fear all that's let to endure

Wanna pull myself together but

I'm already torn

I'm already torn

Running to the closing door

I can't take this anymore

Wanna pull myself together

But I'm already already torn

Running to the closing door

Digging my own grave

Changing my old name

I can't take this anymore

Wanna crack the code but I'm already torn

Staying right here will just

Make me fear all that's let to endure

Wanna pull myself together

Wanna say I'm doing better in my head

Wanna say I'm everything I've ever wanted to be but

I'm already torn

I'm already torn

I'm already torn