ROT AWAY (feat. Kozi Kondo)

(Chorus)

Friends sayin' lately I've been too gone,

I ain't talkin' faded, talkin' mental,

Yeah, I'm getting ready, but it's too long,

I know that's what you felt when you moved on.

At times, even my own mind I hate,

In the past, I'd always just go and find a way,

But you're not here, and what I'm tryna say,

Movin' on can't ever take the pain away.

(Brideg)

I just wanna wait for,

I just wanna wait for you.

I just wanna wait for,

I just wanna wait for you.

I just wanna wait for,

I just wanna wait for you.

I just wanna wait for you.

May these words act as the light in the shutter space,

While simultaneously takin' your mind to other places.

One not as dark, not as mean, not as grey,

One where she don’t hold my O2, I don't suffocate.

Often a mess, even the days when I'm good,

Still buggin', overly stressed 'bout nothing.

Assumptions, stuff I regret, searching for spots

Where the sun never sets, functioning?

Sort of, constant effects, choices I made,

Got me lookin' for breath, hoping there wasn’t potential

I chose to neglect, haunt me to death.

‘Til I pass away, that's why I do this,

Make this music as a passageway.

For future me to see and feel like I was Cassius Clay,

Can't forget that I had risen from the ash to make

Who I am today, changing speeds on these boys

Like I'm Mike Mussina, these flows D Rose MVP

Season, my mind is somewhere far out like I'm Polynesian,

Even my rhymes eating, the second course cleaner.

But when I stop and think about exactly what’s coming

Right after this, past the Milky Way and all these neighboring galaxies,

Truly frightening when I actually try to imagine it,

There’s much more than the illusion of what we call reality.

But look around, caught up in this smoky atmosphere,

Took it down, all it bought me was my ticket here.

Now I’m stuck in my asylum, but my vision clear,

Set up in flames, you can tell by all the ash in here.

(Chorus)

Friends sayin' lately I've been too gone,

I ain't talkin' faded, talkin' mental,

Yeah, I'm getting ready, but it's too long,

I know that's what you felt when you moved on.

At times, even my own mind I hate,

In the past, I'd always just go and find a way,

But you're not here, and what I'm tryna say,

Movin' on can't ever take the pain away.

Well, I only saw you in the light like a matinee,

That's the thing, don’t know where she went,

She might have passed away, actually.

I spiral when I think of you, anxiety exacerbates,

Her words brought us close, but her actions they made me back away.

Don’t call me when I think of us, and the end that came,

And the eventual adultery, see I can't turn back,

Just like Lot’s wife, I would be way too salty.

She said her piece, I don't fight, that's a lethal weapon, she loaded,

She gunned me down when she told me

(She don’t want me).

Autobahn speeds, no breaks in this bitch,

Once I pass a certain point, there ain’t no way that I miss.

Unless the one I call my everything ain’t who she is,

MPH is too quick, and she ain’t trying to stick.

And now you're backed in the corner, didn’t want to be vulnerable

Again, but you figured that’s the only way forward.

Now your lens is cracked though it never was before this,

After vicious attacks, how could it not be out of focus?

And it hurts to turn back, but you can’t help but look for closure,

Still what lurks in the back is the awful feeling that you noticed

All the red in the flags but decided to keep going,

Now your mentally trashed, and your heart might never open

Up again 'cause the mask is easier to go and show off,

Less questions asked which means less of us can be broken.

And one day you’ll have someone who wants you to be open,

‘Cause they care at last, but it’s too late, you feel too broken.

So avoid contact because the trauma makes you close in,

Now the cycle can’t be broken.

(Chorus)

Friends sayin' lately I've been too gone,

I ain't talkin' faded, talkin' mental,

Yeah, I'm getting ready, but it's too long,

I know that's what you felt when you moved on.

At times, even my own mind I hate,

In the past, I'd always just go and find a way,

But you're not here, and what I'm tryna say,

Movin' on can't ever take the pain away.

I just wanna wait for,

I just wanna wait for you.

I just wanna wait for,

I just wanna wait for you.

I just wanna wait for,

I just wanna wait for you.

I just wanna wait for you.

(fin)