Not Like I Love You

It’s cold in California, colder now that I can’t hold you‬

Bring the seasons back to me‬

You got too far for me to keep up‬

Maybe one day you’ll look back and think of me‬

Remember when you came down in mid-October‬

Got caught up thinking 'bout if we were growing up

I don’t think I can do all this right now‬

No one told me this is how it goes

I didn't know love could feel so damn cold‬

I thought I’d understand as I got older

But I still don’t‬

It’s not like I love you!‬

You’re just stuck in my head!‬

And it’s not like I want you‬

Well maybe I thought I did!‬

Well I don’t even want to‬

Ever see you again!‬

But it’s not like I love you!‬

But it’s not that I didn’t!‬

Don’t wait for me to come and save you‬

I can’t be the one whose standing at your door‬

What am I supposed to do here?

It’s so useless‬, I am not the man you think you’re looking for‬

Yeah I still miss your voice and the way you smoke‬

But I don’t really think about if you’re alone‬

It’s different now and that’s how it should go‬

Yeah, last I heard about you, you were drunk at home‬

And I was doing what I love down on the coast‬

I found myself when I put down that phone

So listen to the tone‬

It’s not like I love you

You’re just stuck in my head

And it’s not like I want you‬

Well maybe I thought I did!‬

Well I don’t even want to‬

Ever see you again!‬

But it’s not like I love you!‬

But it’s not that I didn’t!‬

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Every time you come around, feels like I only move sideways‬

Back, up, and down but never forward at my pace‬

I felt the ground fall as soon as you said my name‬

I know

I best be long, long gone!‬

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It’s not like I love you!‬

You’re just stuck in my head!‬

And it’s not like I want you‬

Well maybe I thought I did!‬

Well I don’t even want to‬

Ever see you again!‬

But it’s not like I love you!‬

But it’s not that I didn’t!‬