Sobering Up

Sparks fly, they say

You lit me up at nineteen

In a chemical bond, hard to break

When you did, it was an unnatural thing

Your voice, your laugh, your touch

Oxytocin and dopamine

And I remember that rush

Your name glowing on my screen

To be loved, to be the first thing on your mind

Without the weight and the shape of you in my bed

I couldn't sleep last night

It's a drug, and I'm going through withdrawal

Sobering up like you, when all I really want

Is to be loved

And you asked me, when did I

Stop wearing my ring?

Truthfully, it was a long time

Before you made a wreck of things

That white gold band, so warped and worn

It didn't even fit on my hand anymore

Didn't I mention?

Didn't you listen?

To be loved, to be the first thing on your mind

Without the weight and the shape of you on my hand

I couldn't sleep at night

It's a drug, and I'm going through withdrawal

Sobering up like you, when all I really want

Is to find my way to forgiveness

You're my best friend, and you're making amends

But my body's calling my bluff

Love has no conditions

But trust sure as hell does

And you're loved

And you're always on my mind

Like an old tattoo, turning blue

Until it fades with time

It's not enough, so I'm going through withdrawal

Sobering up, sobering up